The Tree Stump where the Skunk resides.

2005-10-10T19:20:00.000-07:00

Hot Hot Hot Sizzling Pig

2005-01-16T11:58:00.000-08:00

Last night went out on a Hot Date with Sizzling Wife Pig. She turned up in a low-cut polka-dot dress that made my Skunky stripe disappear down the tail... Sorry, NO PICS muahahaha all the old tiko wanting to see my Wife Pig fat hope!

Parked my bike at home at 10pm, hopped on to taxi with chatty cabby and we reached Changi Village soon after. Crab + salad "you tiao" + 2 bottles of Heineken + 13 sticks of satay....shiok....

Thereafter we adjourned to Friends Pub...nice ambience....2nd time i've been there....nice resort-styled toilet....heh heh heh...

I smoked one of the other cigars meant for Daniel....yucks tasted like shit....this one costs $16...the previous one (which tasted marvellous) costs $18...what a world of difference for $2!!!! Daniel, be glad i took the shit for you!!! Now u will have the better one :)

Washed down with 3 Ballantine on the rocks......ahhhhhhh

Hopped on to comfortable Mercedes cab home....

The Good Life :)

2005-01-09T15:40:00.000-08:00

Top speed 150+km/h, 0-100 km/h in 8 seconds. Let the others smell my dust.....heh heh heh....oh yah, the storage boot can probably put an entire case of beer....anyone?

2005-01-09T15:38:00.000-08:00

40 horsepower, one Skunk at the control, the SilverWing soars....

2005-01-09T15:36:00.000-08:00

ooooohhhhhh.....

2005-01-01T20:52:00.000-08:00

Dad singing. his voice is damn good, not like mine at all. The camera phone is only good for closeup photos. solli for the grainy shots.

2005-01-01T20:51:00.000-08:00

mom and aunt singing.

2005-01-01T20:50:00.000-08:00

went to a Hainanese clan dinner last night. drank TONS of booze...here's my aunt and mom.

2004-12-31T17:08:00.000-08:00

cut the cigar meant to smoke with Dan in half and smoked one half on early New Year's Day. With whiskey it's definitely a good start to a new year!......the bloody green light again :(

2004-12-29T17:02:00.000-08:00

Me and my boat....in 10 years' time hahaha....er....ok i will stop the lame jokes.

2004-12-29T17:00:00.000-08:00

Evil Pig and her boat, out to catch all the fish in the sea muahahaha. Can someone tell me why my photos always turn out green?!?

2004-12-29T16:58:00.000-08:00

Wife Pig at SAF Yatch Club. Dinner was fantastic, right by the beach. Might hold my wedding there. Cold beer anyone?

Singa Inn on 26th Dec.

2004-12-27T20:36:00.000-08:00

On the 26th Dec went to Singa Inn with the SVDP Society members, inmates from the various homes we serve and our adoptee families.

It was my first time there, the restaurant had a very laid-back, relaxed ambience. I like!!!

Enjoyed the outing so much. Truely, my days with SVDP Society will be the happiest and most memorable in my entire life :)

2004-12-27T04:30:00.000-08:00

Feasting at Singa Inn by hungry ghosts muahahaha

2004-12-27T04:29:00.000-08:00

Laura + Maryanne + Yi Han

Circa 1995

2004-12-24T17:54:00.000-08:00

Went for a class reunion with my Chinese High mates last night. Fantastic. Especially the KTV part. When we sang all the songs popular during '95/'96, i was hit by a severe sense of nostalgia. Here we are, all grown horizontally and 10 years older, still basically the same old boys in a bigger, fatter shell. (oh, except for Roy of course, the bugger now looks like he's escaped from Ethiopia)

When we were kids, we played marbles. When we were teens, we played football. Now as young adults, we play number-ball and i get thrashed. Damn.

Will definitely want to meet up more. Cant wait to lose more money muahaha.

2004-12-24T01:57:00.001-08:00

Gay buddies reuniting after 10 years *sob sob*

2004-12-24T01:57:00.000-08:00

Adrian Wee trying to stick a nasal probe up Shin. Ray meditating.

Broken

2004-12-21T23:03:00.000-08:00

The last SVDP Society meeting for the year. It ended with a big potluck which saw me being stuffed to the furry ears again.

During the makan, I talked to G. Her father got into an accident this year and is now paralysed, she was supposed to get married this December, she had even bought her flat already, but i suppose, due to the pressure of all these things happening all at once, she and her fiance separated.

This came as a total shock to me. May this be a daily reminder to me not to take anything for granted - always be prepared for the worst. If you live everyday prepared for Hell, you could be very well living a life in Paradise, isn't it?

Mystery Photo Contest AGAIN!!!!

2004-12-21T09:04:00.000-08:00

Over the weekend, my bro EuRen gave the family a treat at a famous curry fish head hawker stall.....yummy....how nice of him. Seriously, when i was in NS, my miserly allowance was reserved only for personal gratification. He's either seriously nice or he wants a favour from us....kekekeke...

Saw my bro EuZhi's new Honda Shadow400....the mean black beast looks damn good....in fact we have the same digits on our number plates!!!! And i was thinking the pickup must be damn slow, a heavy bike pilloning a massive chunk of walking muscle....i was wrong....the brief ride out of the hawker carpark saw EuRen's KRR wheeze before it could reach it's optimum power...kekeke....of course, my anaemic Phantom was the last in line.

At last, the Mystery Photo Contest is up again after a brief hiatus...now can any blog-reading-addict guess the age of the hand in the photo? The only clue: it's one of my students...keke....

Winner gets a porno VCD...keke....

2004-12-21T06:55:00.000-08:00

The Big Brother of the little Xmas tree at home ;)

2004-12-20T17:05:00.000-08:00

Family Christmas Tree with it's garland of lights. It's Jesus' Birthday Bash...how nice to be 2004 years old :) keke.

2004-12-20T17:03:00.000-08:00

The Big Black Evil Thing under Mysterious Green Light...eeeee....

2004-12-20T17:02:00.000-08:00

The Big Black Evil Thing.

2004-12-20T17:01:00.000-08:00

Nowadays spiders only have 5 legs.

The Obstinate Old Thing

2004-12-14T12:35:00.000-08:00

My bro EuRen brought back a critter the size of my forearm but a temper bigger than yesterday's thunderstorm. Disgusting. I hate dogs.

2004-12-13T20:36:00.000-08:00

grrrrrr.....

Boats boats boats

2004-12-11T15:03:00.000-08:00

Wife Pig's family rented a chalet at Aloha Changi. Really nice...rented for 3 days. Tonight having BBQ...Yummy!!!!

Yesterday just drank beer and relax...this morning went to Changi Yatch Club and looked at boats....damn...i really love boats!!!! The moment i make the big $$ (if i ever...) is to buy a boat, weekends will be spent at sea, fishing, suntanning and just being naked with no one to see and complain ;)

Dunno wat's Singaporeans' fascination with cars...a boat beats one hands down....if ever become bankrupt can live in the boat...definitely cant do that in a car!!! Muahahahaha!!!!

Will keep all jealous blog-readers updated on delicious BBQ....

2004-12-10T23:05:00.000-08:00

Changi Yatch Club. Nice little boats in background. Face puffy from The Good Life of beers and greasy food. Still jealous? ;)

Black Cloud's Last Stand

2004-12-09T09:00:00.000-08:00

What an eventful day i had yesterday!

9.30am collected fees in CCK.

10.00am collected documents at Aunt Valerie's place.

10.30am went for vehicle inspection. never knew my bike was this loud, it clocked 93.4 decibles!!!!

11.30am met Wife Pig at Cineleisure for japanese buffet. wonderful concept, steamboat + teppanyaki + sushi for only around $20 per pax. shiok.

1.30pm decided to hop over to Tangs for shopping. Checked weather: clear. Halfway around Taka it started to pour so suddenly i couldnt change into rain gear. My light brown shirt turned dark brown. walked around Tangs with no one noticing kekeke.

4 pm left Tangs for work at Upper Serangoon. Checked weather: clear. Just after Mustafa it started to pour AGAIN!!!! WTF!!!! just ahead of me 200m it's shiny like shit and there i was drenched again, right down to my boxers!!!!

5.30pm taught A Maths to student oblivious to stench coming out of my collar. yyyeeewwww.

7pm Wife Pig called me to say she's STILL at Tangs!!!!! Women and their shopping...really...

8.30 pm Spent ONE WHOLE HOUR squeezing through a jam that stretched from serangoon all the way to orchard rd. 15km of vehicles bumper to bumper!!!! MAD!!!! If i had taken the MRT i would have arrived in 20 mins. Buying a helicopter next.

8.45pm had fantastic Tom Yam chicken at Island Cafe at Tangs. Yummy.

9.15pm shopping at Paragon. bought nothing.

10.30pm Home Sweet Home. 2 glasses of whiskey to soothe the pains of a toxic day.

May you rest in peace.

2004-12-07T22:51:00.000-08:00

Just came back from Society of St Vincent de Paul meeting. Heard a sad piece of news which i would like to share with everyone.

A year ago when i first joined SVDP Society, i attended their Christmas Party. There was a nice woman named Maria. She was from Renci Hospital and a nurse was feeding her. I told the nurse to go have her meal first, let me feed her. Renci Hospital is not really a hospital, rather, it's a hospice - a place for the terminally ill to die a forgotten death.

Maria is a fellow Catholic so i chatted with her. She's around 40, can't move much because of a stroke, wears spectacles, is nice and chubby (surprisingly) and im sure she must have been a person who smiled alot before she fell so sick.

Some months later when i visited her at the hospital, she was transferred to a government hospital because her health had taken a turn for the worst. She died on the 5th Dec 2004.

One year. The last time i saw her a year ago, she was sick but definitely not terminal. Now, she's gone.

Our lives are weak and fragile. Our Birth and Death seemed as fleeting as the sunrise and sunset, the mere passing of a delible mark on the mosaic of Existence.

May we Love with our entire hearts, Laugh till we Cry, Cry till we Laugh, and make sure we live each day with a relish no unpleasantness, sadness nor anger can take away.
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Dear Creator of the Universe, thank you for allowing me the pleasure of encountering your beautiful creation Maria and may You bless her to the fullest. Amen.

2004-11-30T04:41:00.000-08:00

Last night had fantastic supper with Wife Pig (can see her humongous trotters in the background. Famous "or luak" at Glutton Square with cold beer....yummy :)

2004-11-30T04:35:00.000-08:00

Shiny lights along Orchard Road...la la la

2004-11-28T18:07:00.000-08:00

1 part Bombay Sapphire Gin, 3 parts Marks and Spencers' Sparkling Bitter Cranberry juice. Shiok.

2004-11-28T17:50:00.001-08:00

Bert tanning away.

2004-11-28T17:50:00.000-08:00

Spent a relaxing afternoon at Siloso beach, with a couple of beers, chicken wings and calamari rings....ahhh....the good life.

TeePee

2004-11-22T08:35:00.000-08:00

Yeah!!!! I've finally passed the final evaluation for my 2A!!!! My Traffic Police Test is on the 28th Dec. If i pass on that day, my SilverWing will be a fitting new year's gift to myself, hahaha!!!

Tried to post this yesterday but something wrong with server, only managed to get my metal donkey's "funeral photo" up. Strange how i've developed an affection for a piece of metal that has given me so much joy and woe at the same time.

My second bro EuZhi changing his bike to Shadow 400. Strange now he's riding a cruiser as well, hahaha. I guess he has enough of aching arms from riding a sportsbike. He's putting me as the sub-rider so one day i will ride a big cruiser again!!!

but for now my heart is longing for a big fat and fast scooter....yummy!!!

2004-11-21T01:04:00.000-08:00

Could be one of the last photos of my baby....boohoohoo...the metal donkey has served Don Quixote well :(

Why?

2004-11-17T21:30:00.000-08:00

Been so busy going too and fro visiting Wife Pig, setting up my repaired computer (and surfing porn of course keke), taking bike lessons. Also taking Class 3 soon. Wife Pig is officially prohibited from sitting pillon on my bike. What irony considering the woman on the opposite bed is a victim of a car accident. The woman beside her is a victim of a fall at the wet market. Seems like i know the reason for NTUC's success....hmm...

Don't they understand that freak accidents always happen? As long as we take all necessary precautions, there is no reason to live in fear, imprisoned by our own insecurities. Anyway, no sacrifice is too small for Wife Pig. I'm buying an off-peak car the moment i pass, to ferry Pig around.

Been reading cousin Paul's blog www.paranoidlameoldfucks.blogspot.com Im very perturbed. Is religion really so detestable? For the multitudes of religion-haters (i think he isn't, he's just indifferent, anyway...) what is it that has happened to them to make them hate it so much? Can ignorant and irritating soap-box preachers and Jehovah Witness door-knockers instill such hatred? Im very curious to know what is behind the hate for a benevolent system that has some flaws that's all.

It's technically impossible to support such a huge weight.

2004-11-14T02:05:00.000-08:00

Earlier at the hospital Pig's Dad (I usually nickname him Potatoe keke the names we give father-in-laws) was ranting about how serious it is (gimme a break, it isn't cancer....by the way he should have seen Bert's fracture back in '95...that should make him pass out...what kinda army regular he is i dunno) and how she should have never picked up cycling since it's so "dangerous".

Strangely, i agree with him partly. Wife Pig should not pick up cycling at this age where it's so difficult for her to learn it. A domesticated pig when let out into the wild will die...it is now my responsibility to keep this pig in the sty instead of trying to introduce it to the beautiful world of "dangerous" sports. Once the learning period is over, it's over.

Can't sleep the whole time so now writing gibberish here. I miss Wife Pig. The empty gaping space beside me seems like a black hole. Strangely, the nights that i spend alone at Seletar wasn't bad at all, but tonight....

Is it the worry? Or is it because all the hugs and kisses throughout this traumatic day has become another beautiful chapter in our love life and i know it?

2004-11-13T06:46:00.000-08:00

Pig landed her enormous weight on her tiny trotter. Under the laws of physics, it's technically impossible to support such a large weight with such a tiny limb.

2004-11-13T06:44:00.000-08:00

She actually cycled for almost 2 hours!!!! She learns fast.

2004-11-13T06:43:00.000-08:00

Pig putting on elbow guards, knee guards, even my bike gloves....looks like a suicide bomber man...

Drank till I fainted. Have i reached the acme?

2004-11-12T08:57:00.000-08:00

Wednesday night. Family had a chalet at Downtown East. Fantastic BBQ food by ex-maid Melinda. Lotsa babes in bikini at the pool. Started drinking at 6pm. 4 glasses of rum-coke. Then some beehoon and chicken wings. Then 4 glasses of wine. Then some hotdogs and otak, then 4 more glasses of rum-coke. Relatives start to leave, Dad and Mom passed out, it's almost 1 a.m. EuZhi passed out too, only Jude and I and his girl sitting outside continuing, it was a grand exposee of how they used to fight, how she used to work as a KTV girl and all their dirty laundry. 2 cans of beer washed down with 2 more glasses of rum. 3 a.m. Passed out.

Thursday, Deepavali holiday. 9a.m woke up, went to toilet to relieve my booze swollen bladder, walked out and BAM! Fainted. My Dad and Mom hurriedly held me up and laid me down on the floor. Total concussion!!!! In all my years of hard-core drinking, this one really took me out. The entire day was spent nursing an injured liver and distended stomache.

9 hours of drinking. Have i reached the limit of human endurance?

Problem

2004-11-09T07:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday visited website of Singapore Catholic Church

Marriage Prep Course only starts in Feb!!!! Seems like wedding will HAVE to take place either in June or Dec next year.

Read a disturbing article

I've always known i was "living in sin" and i make no excuses about it, but this is the first time i'm seriously considering changing my cohabitating ways. We've been living together for about 3 years now and change seems difficult.

Told Wife Pig about it. She takes the religion less seriously than i do and she immediately starts to make excuses, not that they don't make sense, here's some of them. Please do comment.

1)Most people cohabit to "try" out a union. We live together because we are already in union, just that our union is yet to be ratified by God and Church.

2)If i move back we would still spend most of the evening together, then i will ride home to merely spend the night. (Esso and BP will benefit immensely.)

3)We would be spending alot of time talking on the phone anyway. (Singtel will benefit immensely)

4)We take Church teaching seriously, that's why we're getting married to avoid "living in sin" so our sin now is only temporary.

5)If we don't say, no one will know.

6)We've been together longer than some married people have been together so there's no doubt we're truly one.

Does she make sense? Or are we trying to justify our "sin". Or do we truly fall into the crevice between morality and immorality?

Will talk to Fr Anthony if i see him. I don't trust Fr Mike to give me a proper answer, he's the crankiest priest i know.

May God guide me to do what is right and if I do what is wrong, may God right my wrongs. Amen.

My Best Friend

2004-11-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday is probably the busiest day i will have for this year. Clocked 12 hours of work. Due to a mishap in planning my schedule, didn't go Mass yesterday. It's the 2nd time I've missed Mass this year....am i going to hell already? HAHAHA.

It's funny how atheists view this strange preoccupation of church/mosque/temple/synagogue-going of religious people as a way the religion "controls" it's followers.

Personally, I'm sure God doesn't need me, He came before me and will be around after i go but i need Him. Atheists will never understand the emptiness i feel without going Mass this week. May my soul endure another long week before the next Mass.

Last night Wife Pig cooked dinner (mee sua with canned pork and vege, yummy) and we went to Causeway Point for Swensons ice-cream. After that we played an hour of pool. It was so thoroughly enjoyable. In another 5 months, we will enbark on the 9th year of our relationship. 8 years of beautiful love, teary quarrels, joyful laughter, painful anger, peaceful embraces, stinky bad breath (her's, not mine) and body odour of 2 fat people coiled around each other, sweating to death.

I realised that she has not just become my lover, my wife, my soul-mate, she's my best friend :)

Here's to another 8 years of horizontal expansion together.

Life and Death.

2004-11-07T00:04:00.000-08:00

Today in The New Paper.

Huang Na's parents shifted the wake of their daughter because of complaints that it was "too close" to a kindergarten and that the children were "scared".

This reminds me of the death of my own maternal grandfather. He died when i was 9. But i never got to see his peaceful face in the coffin because my stupid Danish cousin kept scaring me with vampire stories. This is a regret i will never forget.

When my neighbour, Miss Daisy Surin died 3 years ago, her body was kept in a room in the church because she is a spinster and has no relatives. Some parishioners complained to Fr Anthony that "it's not nice to have a dead body there because there are kids next door having catechism". Fr Anthony screwed everybody up at Mass that weekend. He reminded us that Life and Death are natural, beautiful events, and that every Catholic should embrace Death, yes, because even Death can be beautiful because God gave us Life and also Death. What we humans need to do is to give each other human dignity, even in death.

There is nothing fearful about death and all kids should learn about it, see and touch a dead person because one day, they and their parents and loved ones will die too. There is no such thing as "too young" for this.

Im very disappointed by the reaction of those parents. This is the result of a world detached from it's natural state, unable to comprehend the place of humanity in this world.

Shit happens II

2004-11-06T01:46:00.000-08:00

Man....really disturbed by my bro Paul's comment to my last blog. Hope i've not alientated myself further from the world....i just have to live out my extreme ideals, not say them out loud right? :)

Anyway apologies to all who have been visiting my blog regularly, there has been a slight lag because a minor medical emergency happened to me. Well, i guess the way i've been leading my life it would happen to me sooner or later.

I think that's why im in a constant state of depression. Most normal people if they fcuk up their life, they would make an excuse for it and live in denial. (no pun to my friend Denialtan). But they might at least live in a world of artificial suspended "happiness".

When i mess up my life, i have almost always seen it cumming (no pun intended again!)for 5 years before it happens and so i live in a state of artificial, suspended misery.

Should i start making excuses for myself?....hmmm.....

Don't bother explaining. Your friends don't need it and your enemies will never believe it.

2004-11-03T12:59:00.000-08:00

Today im very free, only working from 5 to 9...that's right, not 9 to 5 but 5 to 9...hahaha.

Spent the whole morning surfing porn, friends' blogs and chat forums. Read many discussions about societical issues, morality, politics, religion and almost anything under the sun.

All my close friends will know, im a very opinionated person. "Opinionated" is a strong word with negative connotations,but my strong opinions have constantly been a source of strength and stability for me. As my close friend Bert once commented, " I've always known you would be someone because you put your everything into whatever you want and believe." Thanks Bert.

But in all these readings, I've also realised what separates one opinionated soul from another is his attitude. Thanks to my Creator, I've an optimistic and constructive soul, I reflect often and am not afraid to give up previously jealously guarded convictions for better ones.

From what I've read this morning, society seems to be full of people who:

hate the entire world because someone from the world has hurt them and so the whole world is to be blamed (huh???)

hate everything to do with religion and spirituality because of some who misrepresented them (again huh???)

hate the government in the belief that "Big Brother is out there to make life miserable for the good citizens" (what?!?)

hate all drivers because a few of them make life miserable for bikers (thanks to the immature people that make up most riders)

hate their own existence and wish they have never been born (well then, good riddence)

As far as im concerned, everything and anything that contributes to a better more beautiful and constructive world is worth my effort, my life and my soul. Im not posting anything to challenge these people, talk is cheap, action is everything. Today i solemnly renew my promise to my Creator to make this world a better place.

2004-11-01T06:42:00.000-08:00

Latest Mystery Object. Winner gets a Carlsberg Special Brew. (8.8% alcohol....wooooo) Teetotallers get to use it as a floor disinfectant. Kills germs better than Dettol. Smells better too.

Spiritual Retreat

2004-11-01T03:07:00.000-08:00

Today attended a spiritual retreat at St Francis Major Seminary. Organised by the Society of St Vincent de Paul (a society dedicated to helping the poor, of which im a member), it did me alot of good spiritually, mentally and emotionally. So i would like to share my thoughts here. Nestled in the dense foilage of Punggol, the retreat was a welcome break from my work and the world, and offered me an opportunity to reflect and recollect my life.

Mary Mother of God

During the retreat, the trials and difficulties of Mother Mary was recounted - how she had to endure social ostracisation by carrying a child out of wedlock, how she submitted to the Will of God and how Joseph had to endure the same trials and difficulties to bring Christ into this world.

I was just wondering. If i were there 2000 years ago, i would have been the first one to scold her slut. And while as Christians,we are supposed to challenge norms, i realise that norms and social conventions are also part of God's work. Both exist for their own reasons, suffering and injustice could very well actually be the work of a compassionate and just God. Sounds incredulously self-contradictory, isn't it?

God allowed Christians to practice polygamy for thousands of years, does it mean He actually agrees with it? Would we have been better off if social conventions did not exist, even if they cause suffering sometimes? Would God have actually wanted Mary to have it easy if the event can be repeated again?

I have always known it but today, im actually feeling the truth behind this: joy,sadness,love,hate,justice,injustice, all exist in a world God proclaimed good. As humans, we simply cannot understand God's immensely macrocosmic view of Life and Creation. We should learn how to discern His Will and submit, for in the total giving of self, can God's Will be done on Earth.

Dear God, I want to...

There was a very good priest, Fr William Heng, who gave a very good homily. He spoke not of what we should do to be good Chrisitans but of what we should not do. Interestingly (hmmm...) I fall into the category of terrible Christians because i like to bargain with God. A certain man prayed, " God, please let me strike lottery so that I can then help the poor." This man is actually clocking his own selfishness with the sanctity of religion. How many of us are guilty of that!

How many of us actually want to be God instead of letting Him do His Will!
"I do God's work so I represent God...so I am God!" HAHAHAHA!!!!

Other quotable quotes:

"You may not have shoes, but there are people who do not have feet."

"What seperates Man from animals is that we have Free Will - the exercise of Free Will is the ability to do things against our human instincts, because the consciousness of Man lies in his soul, not his brain, unlike animals."

"There are no single rooms in God's Kingdom. Either you bring your friends with you to Heaven or you don't get to go at all."

2004-11-01T03:03:00.000-08:00

Interestingly artistic crucifix at St Francis Major Seminary.

2004-11-01T03:02:00.000-08:00

Mother and Son Station of the Cross at the Seminary.

2004-11-01T03:00:00.000-08:00

Chinese-styled painting showing Christ calling out to the fishermen. Notice the Chinese Christ bears an uncanny resemblance to Guan Gong....kekeke...

More pieces of shit.

2004-10-30T13:28:00.000-07:00

Last night i found out that the "angel teacher" who employed me to teach a weak but artistically gifted student might be having an "extraordinary" relationship with the student.

Why else would he pay hundreds for her tuition and send her from Toa Payoh to Tampines (my aunt's place as it's more conducive) every other day??

It's either:

1) They are in love.
2) She's in love with him but he's innocent of cradle-snatching.
3) I'm just imagining things...which is so unlikely if so i better go back Woodbridge to stay.

There is nothing with love, except that she's 17 and he's in his mid-30s. By the time they get married, have kids and when the kids most need him, he's an old man waiting to die.

Seems like there's a devil in every one of us.

This reminds me of my old student who is 12 but has a father in his 50s, uneducated, retrenched, old, tired and disconnected with his young son. The son is a bastard who scolds his father everyday, who envies other fathers who bring their sons out to the park and cycle and run with them.

My point is that the kid's wrong, but so is the father, for making a mistake and ruining another person's life.

I hope the errant teacher sees his mistake and wakes up to reality soon.

Even more pieces of shit.

2004-10-30T12:42:00.000-07:00

Early this morning i was estatic. A P4 student of mine scored a distinction in Science!!! I'm so proud of him. He's the epitome of the young achiever: he breaks off friendships with bad company just to focus on studies. He records down his fav cartoons to watch AFTER exams (rare act of self control for a 10 yr old) and he throws his toys away after his mom scolded him for playing too much.

He told me over the phone that he wants me to buy him an encyclopedia as a reward. My God, most other 10 yr old would be asking for a toy instead!

Later in the morning i was in the dumps again. My P5 kid's mother called to stop the tuition. Apparently the reason was that i scolded her son the last lesson. I said ok. Then i called again saying i need to see the son one last time on Monday for his exams. She hung up the phone.

This kid is already 11 for goodness' sake. They really pamper him. It's really society's fault for always choosing the easy way out, for rewarding weakness instead of strength, evading difficulties instead of facing them straight on.

I remembered a few years ago, my father scolded me "stupid". That was when i was still suffering from depression. I punched myself in the face and head, saying i would kill myself.

I'm so ashamed i actually behaved that way, so weak and useless. My dad went on to chide me further by saying "everyone gets scolded. Even I get scolded by my boss 'stupid'. Does it mean i should kill myself too?"
I responded, " but i'm your son! Not your subordinate!"
And my dad answered, "ok, i will never scold you again. Happy now?"

That was the end of a close father-son relationship. My father never scolded me again. That's probably because he gave up holding so much emotional stake in me. At that time i did not realise people only bother getting themselves worked up if they cared enough, not hated enough. It's too late now, I've lost a father because of my weakness.

The road to happiness looks narrow and difficult but it leads to Paradise. The road to hell looks beautiful and invitating, but it leads to pain and suffering.

Pray that i choose the difficult road. It's long and lonely but i hope im ready for it.

Piece of shit.

2004-10-30T00:55:00.000-07:00

Went to MDIS today to apply for certificate course.

Stupid "education consultant" (that was her name tag) a.k.a receptionist tried to sell me a degree programme every three minutes.

"Ever considered a degree programme?"

"Erm...no." (who you want me to show it to? my fellow business owners Gilbert or Enlai to convince them of my capabilities?)

"Would you like to take a look at our degree programmes?"

"Erm...no." (actually, I'm interested in an engineering/science/medicine/law degree that can make me the $$$$...business management? and fight with the thousands of uncles and aunties that have similar degrees?)

"Why don't you upgrade to a degree?" (sure i would like to, but not your lameass degree please, since you even have to SELL it to me hahaha)

It's disgraceful and disguisting.

She's the one who needs the degree in business management, not me. She's ruining the product image of MDIS. Besides, she needs a course in English as well, her English sucks.

I will not make the same mistake of hard-selling education when i open my tuition centre. Education is not lelong ice-cream by the roadside. It's the cultivation of mind and soul, something people thirst for, not something to be treated the way she treated it.

Good News

2004-10-28T21:31:00.000-07:00

Yeah...Primary 4 Streaming Exams over, Primary School exams for other levels will be over by mid of next week and O Levels will be over soon because the subjects i teach are examined earlier than others.

My days getting increasingly relaxed.

Working on a few new stuff in the holidays:

1) my latest invention, something that can recycle paper indefinitely at consumer point.

2) Cerificate in Teaching Methodology

3) doing more fishing and hiking

4) trying to lose weight but in vain

5) doing nothing

Gilbert the Slackeroo recommended me to the boss of the tuition centre he works in! I'm going for interview next Tuesday!!! Everybody pray for me, im very interested in this opportunity to learn how to handle group dynamics. My previous experience was only managing 4 in a class, so this new experience will come in useful :)

Bert, i owe you a meal!!! Prata on me!!!

2004-10-28T06:31:00.000-07:00

My P4 student Kelvin. Not very smart but very earnest. That's all that's impt actually :)

Hehehe...

2004-10-26T23:01:00.000-07:00

Here's Mystery Object 4.

I doubt any of u guys need it except me :)

Happy guessing! The winner gets a large bottle of Heineken. Teetotallers get the empty bottle as a souvenir...*burp*

2004-10-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

Mystery Object 4

2004-10-26T12:18:00.000-07:00

The Culprit

Slammed!!!!

2004-10-26T12:15:00.000-07:00

Last night was terrifyingly traumatic.

After 12 hours of non-stop work, i went for my 2A motorbike lesson tired but propped up by 2 cans of Red Bull.

It was a disaster again. The bloody machine was soooo heavy, the engine brake was scary and the Vtec valve opens at a ridiculous 3000rpm...with the result that every corner i take i overshoot 2 lanes!!!!

While doing the "bumpy course", riding the bike standing up across a series of little humps, i lost control, tried to put down my right leg to stabilise....and SHIT!!!! my trouser leg got caught in the bloody foot-peg!!!! The 210kg machine leaned it's weight onto me and i collapsed to the right, the bike crushing my leg!!! Luckily nothing was broken, only a sprained ankle.

I have to repeat the lesson again next week :(

I went home to sleep instead of the Pig Sty, severely traumatised. Luckily, my dear old alcoholic family was there to comfort me. My mom poured me a few glasses of gin tonic to soothe my rattled nerves. Man, feels good to booze again.

The response to Mystery Object 3 was too cold...perhaps a photo of my sprained ankle would help?

The Wandering Pilgrim

2004-10-25T01:28:00.000-07:00

Earlier had a nice supper with Bert again. Shared so many things with him, he's a great guy to work with as he has a very progressive and constructive mindset, but somehow i miss the very intense friendship we had back in '95.

Increasingly i feel this dark looming void in my heart, in my life. I've mentioned it before but it's growing day by day. It's a thirst water can't quench and a hunger bread can't fulfill. What is it?

I miss Dan badly but i know that when he comes back, the very intense relationship we had for the past 4 or 5 years will be gone. Kareen will be there to fill his life. No one has a need for a stupid gay partner who just wants to hang around at the void deck, drink, listen to jazz and pollute the air with smoke.

Ah...i miss those days...Norah Jones on the radio, gin tonic in a glass, Winstons on my lips, buddy by my side, watching the world go by....

Perhaps that's the reason why im not asleep yet? it's something im searching for that no one can give me right now.

Have i actually been searching for this all my life?

At the consecration of the Saint Vincent de Paul Society of my parish, a very beautiful prayer was said:

"Lord God,

You are the God of the Pilgrims, who wandered through the desert for 40 years searching for the Promised Land.

May You bless the Pilgrims with a heart that longs for you, with a thirst that can't be quenched. May the Pilgrim wander for the rest of his life and he will not find rest until he finds rest in You.

Amen."

2004-10-25T01:13:00.000-07:00

Chicken Telephone

Answer to Mystery Object 3

2004-10-25T01:05:00.000-07:00

Can see that not many responses to Mystery Object 3.

Could it be that it's not provocative enuff? kekeke...

Is it a merely a plastic chicken?

A mouse? A toy? An alien spaceship? A fancy vibrator?

nope.....it's a telephone!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!

I get to keep the booze...

2004-10-24T12:50:00.000-07:00

used evian hydrating spray.

2004-10-24T12:49:00.000-07:00

Junk

2004-10-24T12:40:00.000-07:00

more junk

Bloody African Post

2004-10-24T12:38:00.000-07:00

Finally got back my parcel.

I sent phones to Togo but got back junk instead. They returned my parcel to avoid compensation claims but stole my phones and sent me junk instead. Check out the junk.

Super4 really super killing my elbows :(

2004-10-22T20:42:00.000-07:00

Just came back from my first 2A practical lesson. A total disaster.

My Donkey - Honda Phantom 200

200cc SOHC Single Cyl
140kg
Gear and Brake levers in front, sitting position: like sitting on toilet bowl.

The Beast - Honda Super4 Vtec

400cc DOHC Inline4 Vtec
210kg
Gear and Brake levers at the back, sitting position: like strapped onto the back of a bloody rocket.

How to adapt? Just any opening of the trottle sends me into outer space. Mounted the curb when doing the course. Thought i was going to crash into the tree. At the end of the lesson my elbows and shoulders ached because the sitting position rested my weight on the handlebars.

Now i know why Daniel Lee has muscular arms - all thanks to riding Super4.

Haiz....im still a long way from my 2A license. The only good thing out of it is all the big-tit babes at the driving centre. My hard-on could have pierced the fuel tank.

Shit Happens. That's Life.

2004-10-21T14:13:00.000-07:00

man, im totally addicted to blogging!!!! AHHH!!!! but i like it :) it's a release for my soul, an opportunity to be King in my own little space, my own little world. The stage for the unrequited star.

Here's the latest skit.

Last night there was a humongous downpour at the Woodlands area where i was working. Seems like the Dec monsoon is coming down in full force. I was riding near Kranji MRT on my way to CCK when i saw the beacons of a police car in front and what seemed to be a big black mass on the road which i couldnt make out in the rain.

As i inched closer, it turned out to be a huge tree, and a couple of guys were pushing up a bike from under the tree and righting it on it's stand. i hurriedly went on my way without noticing if the poor rider was still under it.

Moral of the Story: that guy could have been riding cautiously everyday, obeying all the traffic rules and praying hard he never get banged down on the roads - and unexpectedly he gets flattened by a falling tree.

Lesson learnt: buy a car. HAHAHAHA.

2004-10-21T14:10:00.000-07:00

This is Mystery Object 3. Hmm. Winner gets a glass of Southern Comfort Bourbon + Diet Coke (tastes great, normal coke too sweet). Teetotallers get the Diet Coke only.

Ssssshake.

2004-10-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

Had 2 cans of coffee with rice crackers in the afternoon. had kopi-peng in the morning. All the caffeine should give my sagging dopamine levels a boost.

They did!!! bbbbuutttt not without serious side effects. (for those of you who don't know, curiously, im VERY sensitive to caffeine, but not other drugs...hmm)

fingers shaking terribly the whole evening, luckily i dont have to draw quadratic curves for evening lessons or else i will look like a delinquent tutor on amphetamines.

BUT they stillllll did lift my spirits :) now nice and happy again, ready for tomorrow, another 12-hour day.

Will the humble Sativa Caffeinesis be my next drug of choice?

Dopamine addict.

2004-10-20T16:21:00.000-07:00

kept snacking on Wang Wang taiwanese rice crackers the whole day. Feel so much more cheerful.

carbo = dopamine release in brain = happiness
beer = carbo = dopamine release in brain = happiness
nicotine = dopamine retainer = happiness in brain
sex = dopamine trigger = happiness in balls.

but unfortunately

carbo + beer + nicotine = quick death

hmm...seems like only sex is the way out. been beating my brother twice a day. i think must upp the frequency. am i going mad? am i perverted? HELP!!!!

2004-10-20T15:21:00.000-07:00

This is fun :) now for Mystery Object 2. Now prize upped to a shot of Ballantine 12 year old whiskey. For teetotallers, they get a shot of BP 4T Engine Oil. Sure to get high.

2004-10-19T23:35:00.000-07:00

Mystery Object 1

Contest of the Week

2004-10-19T23:29:00.000-07:00

ok ok. To make my blog more interesting, i've decided to organise a contest.

Anyone who manages to guess the Mystery Object 1 will get a can of beer from me. Teetotallers will get a can of Coke...hmmm...i think they lugi..keke...anyway, happy guessing!!!!

Reflections

2004-10-19T23:24:00.000-07:00

had a damn shit busy day. in the afternoon developed MASSIVE headache and had to rearrange the afternoon session to go home and take a nap. Bloody weather drizzling the whole day...shivering behind the blody tiny windshield. The giant screen and fairing of my next bike (either Suzuki Burgman400, Yamaha Majesty400 or Honda Silverwing400, all big scooters) definitely be much appreciated.

In the evening went for St Vincent de Paul Society meeting. One of the members suffered a stroke and is now paralysed neck-down. He's going to be transferred to a Home and because of his condition, it's gonna cost 6 to 7 thousand dollars a month!!! What irony. He used to be rich, successful, serving the poor and now he has become one of them. Life is so precious we simply have to seize every single day by the neck and make full use of it. This event shook me badly as i know him personally. I pray everyday that God heals him and that i give my life to Him.

It dawns upon me that in the face of Death and Permanent Disability, nothing else matters anymore. In fact, in the face of Life and it's sanctity, nothing else matters too. In the evening i was bothered by an innoculous comment made by a friend. Now, i feel that i've spent too much time and energy caring about the things that dont really matter, to the extent that i've ruin most of my life.

May God take my Soul, mold my Spirit and make me His Hands.

Photos, photos where art thou?

2004-10-18T00:13:00.000-07:00

Realising that my blog is getting pretty boring without interesting photos and clips. maybe my readers are too kind to mention. i promise more will be up...has taken too long to realise not all my friends are interested in knowing my busy schedule or incessant battle with $$ problems.

maybe a daily porn site will do fine? keke....

www.tommys-bookmarks.com

Weekend...hmm

2004-10-17T00:20:00.000-07:00

Had a very good weekend as my work schedule gradually slows down. Saturday had dinner with Wife Pig at Spice and Wine Restaurant in Seletar Hills...the best bloody Indian restaurant i ever eaten and i still love it. Bill:$34 AFTER 20% discount for using Amex. Bloody expensive too.

After dinner went to Sengkang to meet Gilbert. Talked the whole bloody night till about 11pm. Seems like the old days again circa 1996. I feel honoured that he takes me so seriously. It's plainly obvious that i need my friends more than they need me...im not complaining man...im counting my lucky stars to have friends who have not abandoned me despite my apparent lunacy. :)

Had some gin tonic that night as mood was dead good. Stole a cigarette from my dad's pack. wasnt enjoyable. seriously, sinful activity should be done with others. like sex...hmmm...

Sunday. Dinner with Aunt who struck a small sum at 4D. Second time my mom and aunt taking my maternal grannie there (famous restaurant) for sharksfin. Reason is plain obvious: grannie in poor health. my estimate is that she might not be around in a few years' time. im so sad. will pop by her place more in Nov/Dec. She loves to booze (typical for my family). I will buy her some good beer. you never know, could be her last mug anytime.

After dinner went to Esplanade had dessert at Bakers Inn. Bloody fantastic. Ambience so good too. Will definitely go again.

Luckily got rich Wife Pig. Supporting her expensive appetite could kill me hahaha.

Open Your Eyes

2004-10-16T10:39:00.000-07:00

Last night watched "Open your eyes", the 1997 Spanish hit-movie, which had a remake starring Tom Cruise as "Vanilla Sky". It's one of my favourite movies of all time. Deeply philosophical, curiously religious, even sexual, dream-like, like a Salvador Dali painting, yet full of lost emotions, like a work of Vincent Van Gogh...culmulation of Life, Death and Love.

After that went for supper at little coffeeshop opposite Strand Hotel. Thai prostitutes everywhere, some really hot...smoked a cigarette, something i had not done for quite a long time. Threw it away halfway...the drug is still there but it does not give me the same feeling anymore. Im lonely, depressed, continually broke, full of spirit fighting for my survival in a world that does not want me nor needs me, searching for the tranquility that perhaps only God can give, yet im so far away from Him.

I would rather be smokin with friends,beside a beach in Thailand,with lots of good beer,fattening pizzas/seafood/BBQ, girlfriends/wives/whores around respective arms, coconut fronds waving in the wind, sun shining down on our faces, cementing the love,joy and friendship in an image that will last eternity.

Last Nail in the Coffin.

2004-10-14T21:12:00.000-07:00

Made a heartbreaking decision today.

I've decided not to continue with my French anymore. In order to be a translator/teacher i will have to actually live in France for at least a couple of years. Even then when i come back, without blonde/brunette hair and blue/green eyes i automatically lose credibility.

Decided instead to enroll for Certificate in Teaching Methodology by MDIS accredited by Southern Cross University in Australia. My partners Gilbert and Enlai might be attending too. Good :)

Totally heartbroken. It's like leaving a beautiful girl knowing that you can't live with her pragmatically. Oh well, im becoming a more and more pragmatic person after being zany for 23 years of my life, hopefully this recent character trait can guarantee my survival.

Damn nervous about Nov/Dec. After doing my sums discovered i will be barely surviving (as usual...). If the bloody bike breaks down one more time im dead. Cant wait to go upgrade my license and buy a new, more reliable bike.

Money aint a thang...

2004-10-13T22:10:00.000-07:00

pasted old tired photo of me on my metallic donkey.

anyway, Wife Pig's colleague Rob rang me up today. There's a kid extremely talented in Art in his class, but sucky at other subjects and coming from a poor family. Saint Rob is willing to pay me to teach his student Maths! I'm amazed at the sacrifices he is willing to go through for his students. I will nominate him for Teacher of the Year next teacher's day. That kid aint even related to him.

Money is truly only a tool. There are those who worship tools, but to many others, they are just a means to an end. For those able to achieve the end itself without the tool, it doesnt even mean a thing to them.

2004-10-13T22:04:00.000-07:00

momoskunk

2004-10-13T11:27:00.000-07:00

2004-10-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

pills

The Easy Way Out.

2004-10-12T19:00:00.000-07:00

man, i've fallen.

I bought a bottle of metabolic uppers/appetite suppressant from GNC. Costs a bloody $114 for a month's worth of pills. It's supposed to increase metabolic rate to burn fats and reduce appetite=weight loss.

i've always believed in not taking the easy way out. i've always believed that's the root of most of the problems humanity faces today. shit. i've fallen into the "pop a pill to solve a problem" syndrome.

And to think that my problem started because of pills. i used to have shit-high metabolic rate...until i started becoming alcoholic and started taking Sodium Valporate to control my Maniac Depression. This toxic combination resulted in my now snail-slow metabolic rate=fat skunk.

But after a day's worth of pills, im impressed.

My appetite really decreased and my metabolic rate really increased. feel giddy sometimes from heightened blood pressure, can feel veins in head pulsating after the slightest exertion, sweating more because body generating more heat. Amazing.

relaxing days approaching. yeah.

2004-10-10T16:09:00.000-07:00

as the exams draw nearer, i can already feel the double twangs of joy/pain attacking me at this time of the year. the joy comes from the free time to go camping, exercising, fishing, chillin, blah blah....the pain comes from almost 2 months of zero income. hmm.

looking forward to a short holiday. looks like i gotta work as pizzaboi for a while. also good. gives me a chance to interact with the Real World for a while.

mind-numbing days

2004-10-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

unbelieveable. i've been working like this for a little more than 2 years now.

Saturday
7.30 wakey wakey
8.30 buy breakfast and foodstuff to go Ju Eng Home. (CCK to Jln Kayu. 30km. 30 mins. top 110km/h)
9.30 reach Ju Eng and start to stuff oldies with goodies.
11.30 finally take breakfast of noodles bloated with 3-hour-old chilli sauce and sausage rolls looking more like old penises.
12 Start journey back from YCK to CCK. 30km in 30 mins. more leisurely 100km/h. can take part in MotoGP Snail Division.
12.30 teach Fabian, 11 y.o. bloke.
2pm CCK to Serangoon Rd. 30km in record 20 mins tearing down Buffalo Rd scaring old indian women.
2.30 buy New Paper and look at bosomy indian women at KK market.
3pm teach Zhengyi. 15 y.o bloke who looks amazingly like Gilbert way back in '93. Uncanny. his doppeldaanger???
4.30 pack dinner from market. Leave for Mass.
5.30 Mass at nearby St Michael's Church. Rosary before Mass almost killed my knees. dozed off during homily.
6.30 takes 2-hour old dinner in church carpark. i blend in with the surroundings of tired shrubs and broken bricks. Serangoon to Admiralty. 30km in 40 mins. navigate through Most Dangerous Road in Singapore: Woodlands Ave 2.
7.30 teach MiaoHui 15 y.o cute girl that looks like Cousin Jennifer circa 1998. i think poor girl suffering from premature aging as i teach her Chemistry. must be my fault. will do self-reflection.
9.30 Admiralty to CCK 10km in 30 mins. Bloody bike bouncing up and down little hills and trying to overtake lumbering trucks epidemic in the area.
10 pm hug Wife Pig.

hooh.

2004-10-08T17:24:00.000-07:00

Hot Pig

IT idiot Skunk.

2004-10-08T17:10:00.000-07:00

Discovered that i could have sent photos via MMS so i can discard the useless made-in-Korea serial cable. Yeah...now i can really spice things up. Here's a recent photo of Wife Pig. How HOT she has grown since the day i first met her in 1995. Positively big fat ah-lian the-sort-that-can-only-wear-black-because-too-fat-and-always-walk-at-the-back-of-the-group but with a cunning intellectual crainial capacity to complement mine. Perfect.

Strange ways of Life

2004-10-07T22:48:00.000-07:00

Last night had supper with my old friend/partner Gilbert. He hasn't changed much since our days at Chinese High, still can detect alot of angst, frustration and denial (not a pun!) inside him. If he is reading this i know he's gonna kill me (yipes!!!).

well, i guess he can detect alot of frustration, depression and inferiority inside me....each of us have our emotional burdens to bear...

Over the years, the sleeping (no pun intended again!!!) academic inside him has bloomed, blossomed, exploded into a full grown academia. He is one of the most academic persons i have ever met in my life!!! And to think that in Chinese High i have always considered myself the more academic one!

He's insanely interested in the process of learning, of self-discovery. I've changed alot. From our dialogue i can see that i've become more of a person focused in the physical world, im more interested in changing lives materially.

There's a Chinese proverb "if the roads don't meet, the ways don't converge, best not to work together." Our meeting last night may prove this wrong. Im filled with confidence in my new business venture. Students need someone to fuel their dreams (Bert can do that). They also need someone who focuses on their grades since this is needed to fill their belly (im focused on that). Im very confident our divergent personalities may actually be a winner!

Im also very heartened that Bert actually cares so much about me even though our friendship had been absent from 1996 to 2002. Roots that go deep are difficult to uproot. Im looking forward to re-building the lost years of brotherhood.

Big Fat Skunk

2004-10-05T08:10:00.000-07:00

went for a free health check by NKF (yup, im cheapo). BAD results. Im damn fat man....need to exercise. been taking fibre drinks to help me to shit now that i've no booze to do the job. man, i sound like a geriatric.

can't wait for Nov/Dec holidays. bought some camping equipment....looking forward to sleeping at the beach, fishing, cooking outdoors...just chillin.

im just too stressed and burnt-out, having worked every single day since June.

Lonely Days.

2004-10-03T23:37:00.000-07:00

Great to receive comments from Dan and my cousin Paul...miss both of them, really great guys, especially Dan.

Have nut drunk booze for AGES. Last night too lonely and miserable, drank a little Southern Comfort whiskey and smoked a cigarette. Didn't enjoy them, though they did bring back beautiful memories of a past simpler life.

Met my business partners Gilbert and Enlai last night for supper. Very excited and positive about my new business. Though my expenditure is very high, my assets are slowly building up. Wedding will be paid by Wife Pig...hehehe....i will pay by being her slave forever :(

Taking Class 2A license soon...enrolling in Nov. For the uninformed, it's for bigger bikes up to 400cc. Looking forward to buying a Burgman400 or Majesty400 scooter next year. Decided to go for a big scooter as the huge fairing and sofa-like seats will soothe my huge ass. Watch out for their tiny wheels = POWERFUL acceleration. 0-100km/h in less than 8 seconds. www.angelfire.com/fl3/flipr/images/burg400_06.jpg">

bad bad days

2004-09-30T10:17:00.000-07:00

These few days have been terrible for me.

1) stoopig phone can't link to PC...lousy korean technology...imagine still using serial port in a world of USB.

2) overspent AGAIN. Spent $2200 in September.

3) cancelled morning work 2 days in a row. Bloody SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) strikes again. Black monsoon skies. Rain rain rain. Wind wind wind. Where is the tropical sun?

4) weight up to a dangerous new level. 78kg. Look like pregnant now. hmm. At least now i have my own tits to fondle.

2004-09-28T19:23:00.000-07:00

This is Oink Club. At the last count there were about 40 pigs.

2004-09-28T19:22:00.000-07:00

This is Madz Pigz. She is from UK. She has a little tag that says "Made in West Sussex."

My First Blog!!!

2004-09-27T13:31:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it!!! I'm having my first blog!!! So interesting, I've never been successful in keeping a diary before, now I'm having a blog.

Will need some time to upload photos.